. Tuesday, April 19, 2011 // 12:31:00 AM 
Came house happily with raisin loaf thinking about how happy my baby will be but found it lying motionlessly in its usual favorite spot, bleeding.
Came house happily with raisin loaf thinking about how happy my baby will be but found it lying motionlessly in its usual favorite spot, bleeding.
Non stop bleeding from its mouth.
To a extent whereby its suffocating.
Did everything i can, hugged it with my hand, had a tissue soaked with my baby's blood in another,repeating "baby please don't go" like a broken radio.
Still, I can still feel it turning cold.
& i waited,trying to feel a heartbeat or maybe just a little movement.
Throughout, i dint shed a single tear at all.
I bathed, ate my supper, watched one piece episode 2 then when its time for me to feed my fat bbies,
I looked at the empty cage,
the cold hard fact is finally kicking in and grief is devouring my mind.
Then tears started falling.
Baby, why did you had to go?
Everything was fine for the past few days & you ate like a glutton,
gulping down all those sunflower seeds i peeled for you in lightning speed.
& i brought your favorite snack home today,
Why din't you stay to munch on it greedily again?.
I am missing you already.
