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. Friday, August 6, 2010 // 2:21:00 AM

Been feeling so lazy and tired recently.
Can't even be bother to comb my hair let alone doll up.
Partly due to that my hair has been looking like a disaster thanks to the hairdresser who cut a lot of layers when i am feeling sleepy that day and now... its all curly in a ugly way.
been going to school everyday looking like a zombie :C.
Had the impulse to just get a boy cut to get rid of those ugly curls. :C
then after that i will start crying cause i took like so long to grow my hair to my current length sigh...
Plan for tomorrow:
ignoring the fact that school start at 9.45am,i shall go to school at 11am then ignore wmw and chiong fyp!.
yesyes fantastic idea :>
I think my hobby is really self-destruction.
I need to hurt myself mentally bad enough in order to achieve something.
till those extend when i want to just disappear from this world ...sort of
But well i wont opt for the byebye to this world kinda way for example :suicide cause its 1) painful 2) stupid 3) cowardly 4)erm really very stupid
i will just give up on my favorite impossible to give up things.
Eg: just quited eating supper,will not eat anything after 11pm anymore.
never! :C
Just can't accept myself for who i am now,
So i just had to turn into who i want to be.
hwaiting 黄天不负苦心人啊!!!